Saturday, 14 February 2015
It's time to say goodbye...
Tuesday, 4 February 2014
Monday, 3 February 2014
Packing the Poop Chute
Since my last post I bid good riddance to 2013 and the year of the slippery snake, and welcomed 2014 and the year of the wood horse (let's hope it's not the Trojan variety).
My mind slipped into a vortex of possibilities and I became flooded with big picture questions such as - What to do next? Finish what I've started? Explore new avenues? Close doors on the past? Open new doors to the future? What shall I make for lunch?
My husband's mantra is, "Why choose? Have it all" - to which I often subscribe to.
However with so much swirling in my head I needed time to let things settle, become clear, and take steps to prioritise and organise my 'Jumps'. With that came a wave of anxiety. Some may say, "I packed my dacks" others, "I sh*t my pants" whereas I've created a new term for this uncomfortableness that precedes impending change, hard work and leaps into the unknown - "I packed my poop chute!"
... Actually, I'm still packing...
While poop is often used to indicate one's mishaps or nervousness, its most obvious definition is putrid waste. As for the chute, it's a device that slows the motion of an object through an atmosphere by creating drag.
So in a nutshell, I have been shoving a whole lot of useless crap into something that I believe will save me, but in reality is dragging me back and slowly delivering me to where I first started.
How have I not noticed this?
It's time for me to let go of my chute. Completely. Forever.
I am still preparing to jump, only instead of packing my poop chute - I am learning to strengthen my wings. It's time to start flying.
Until our next cuppa, look at how you seek protection and ask yourself, "Is this really a hinderance?"
- Grace xxoo
ps. A big congratulations to Donald Ridley who did his first water slide in Bali last year at age 44. You rock! (I too did my first ever water slide last year at age 42. So we have something else in common)
pps. A big thank you to Amber who stopped me in Adelaide last week and told me to keep writing.
ppps. An even BIGGER thank you to you if you've read this far. Just knowing you're here keeps me inspired xo
If you love it, why not share it?
Sunday, 29 December 2013
Pinocchio and the 'Big Picture To Do List'
How many times have you written down your 'Big Picture To Do List' (which is inevitably infiltrated with little picture, really-must-get-these-things-done tasks) and by the time you get to the bottom of the page you're overwhelmed, exhausted by the sight of it and think you're insane and a complete fraud for even thinking about such grandiose ideas?
Okay... let me take a step back...
How many of us even write a 'Big Picture To Do List'?
For those with an overactive imagination, the need to have a sense of purpose and whose present-moment experience is highly influenced by the direction one is heading (i.e. me) - leveraging the 'Big Picture To Do List' can transform one from bobbing around aimlessly in an ocean full of options, to launching into life like a target-locked missile, gaining speed and momentum with each nanosecond.
Whilst 'To Do' lists are useful in ticking boxes and getting things done, the inherent problem with the 'Big Picture To Do List' is that it is, by definition, 'Big Picture' - which can often take years to manifest. So when one's 'Big Picture To Do List' remains stagnant, and what was written down 5, 10, 15, 20+ years ago is still there today, it leaves one questioning oneself - Who am I kidding?
But before we judge ourselves, we ought to acknowledge that all 'To Do' lists have a major downfall that severely impacts the psyche of even the minutest of overachievers. They fail to recognise what has been achieved (often in place of what was on the list). Just as living into a promising future shapes our present moment experience, so too does recognising an accomplished past.
For all of us grappling with new-age notions and forbidding the future and past to intrude on the present - let me just tell you here and now that it's bullshit. Reflecting on the past and visualising a future gives context to our now. I don't condone dwelling in either direction, but brief glances to shape our present experience is what makes us human (I have no interest in being divine, sorry).
After yesterday's post many have pledged to write a 'Jumping List'. So with saying goodbye to 2013, and hello to 2014 - I ask that we not only plan our future jumps, but also acknowledge our past jumps. For failing to celebrate our achievements is hiding our truth from ourselves - and that's the biggest Pinocchio lie of all.
Until our next cuppa, start writing... and when you're overwhelmed by the future, take courage from your past.
- Grace xo
If you love it, why not share it?
Saturday, 28 December 2013
Are you afraid to jump?
My parents freaked...
Dad: What are you going to do when you get there?
Me: I'll stay with my friend Tarls until I get on my feet.
Mum: How are you going to support yourself?
Me: I'll get a job.
Dad: Why don't you wait till you find a job first and then leave?
Me: I've already booked my ticket - I'm going. Don't worry - I'll find a job and I'll be okay.
And within 2 weeks, I jumped.
The following year I received an invitation to my (then) boyfriend's friend's wife's cousin's wedding... in Jamaica (as you do). Flights to Montego Bay ex London were cheap so how could I refuse?
Our cultural wedding experience was followed by a 2-week adventure that circumnavigated the island. We took advice from locals and ended up at Rick's Cafe in Negril, which is now famous for its high cliff-top jumping platforms that challenge thrill seekers to plunge into the turquoise Caribbean Sea below.
Back then, we were the only non-locals within cooee of this site - and I, the only female. Testosterone filled the air with dares and backward triple somersault jumps. I watched in anxious awe.
My companion urged me to jump assuring me that I'd love it. Instead of starting at the lower jump points - I went straight to the top of the highest platform (35ft /10.7m) .
I looked down at what seemed to be 5kms (3.1mi) below and retreated. My companion continued to jump and climb, jump and climb, jump and climb - he was like a lab rat on speed. With each plunge he assured me that I could do it, and I'd love it.
This immediately took me back to a time when I was a child at my Aunt's beach house. All my cousins would jump from a sandy cliff height of about 1.5m (5ft) onto the soft sand below. Many times I stood at the top with the intention to jump, but I just couldn't do it. Ever.
So here I am (I could hear myself thinking), I have an opportunity to have a breakthrough. Make up for all the little jumps I missed out on as a child. Do it Grace, do it.
My companion jumped in once more and from the water below called up to me, "Come on Grace - you'll loooooove it! Just jump like a tin soldier - keep your feet straight like a pin".
Before I knew it, I had launched myself from the platform.
Utterly terrified I heard a blood-curdling scream echoing all around me. It was mine. I felt myself accelerate through the fall to a point where I hit warp speed - the fastest ever free fall.
In my terror, I had become completely paralysed. I could not straighten my legs and I hit the water with the thud of my butt. It was like landing on a sandpit - from 5kms high.
What followed was years of pain and spinal complications arising from the inability to sit with good posture - what's worse was that my favourite hideout in the guise of a movie cinema, was now a torture chamber. Not a fitting reward for my bravery, I thought.
As time went on and the pain persisted, I began to view my jump as much less courageous and more likely stupid. Why do we do that with 20/20 hindsight? If I'd have had a successful breakthrough and conquered my fear of jumping - then I'd have been a hero. Instead, I deemed myself a loser.
Since then, I have become increasingly afraid to jump - both literally and metaphorically. My fear of perpetuating a 'loser outcome' has kept me safe, but it has also eroded my youthful spirit of optimism and possibility - the same spirit that had me buy that one-way ticket to London in the first instance.
Life continually tempts us with opportunities, presents us with challenges and dares us to take risks. If we are not jumping, are we passively paralysing ourselves and asphyxiating our spirit?
Right now I am on the precipice. I have so many projects that I have yearned to manifest, but my fear of jumping has kept them safely locked away in the pipeline, on the back burner and when I have money, energy and time.
With only two days of 2013 left, perhaps now is the time to prepare my chute and get ready to jump in 2014. Who's with me?
Until our next cuppa, think about where in life you are afraid to jump - and start packing your chute too.
- Grace xo
If you love it, why not share it?
Thursday, 26 December 2013
Is the comeback making a comeback?
Hello, is there anybody out there?
It's been near on 3 years since declaring my last post and everything in this virtual landscape has changed (so much). I thought it'd be like coming home, but it's all so different now... or is it...?
Why do we (Ron Burgundy and 1960's, 70's & 80's rock bands) feel the need to make a comeback?
Is it because we are trying to recapture the feelings of success and adoration we enjoyed all those years ago?
Is is because that every 'new' thing we've tried since our departure has failed, or simply did not give us the same buzz?
Is a comeback similar to rekindling an old flame? We go back because of great memories - but in time, will we soon be reminded why we split up in the first place?
All is to be revealed (to myself also).
So why the comeback - my comeback - and will it last?
Truth is, I don't know.
I reinvented myself a gazillion times after Project Grace 2010 in my pursuit of the perfect persona and the perfect blog - but I felt like I was an impostor... of myself.
Weird, I know.
I started Project Grace 2010 with a specific intention of 'finding myself' leading up to my 40th birthday.
The thing is, I am continually evolving (aren't we all?) and I failed to allow my blog to evolve with me.
I held a rigid interpretation of the title, which made it seem odd for me to continue beyond 2010. How silly was I?
Three years later, my view has expanded. Project Grace 2010 can mean whatever I choose for it to mean. I am the creator, the author - just as I am creator and author of my life... it's time to start writing... again.
Until our next virtual cuppa, where in life can you alter your interpretation and make a comeback?
Grace xo
ps. Thank you Kate for your encouraging words on 6th September 2010.
Saturday, 1 January 2011
Beyond Project Grace 2010

After much contemplation, I declare that Project Grace 2010, the blog, has come to its timely end.
Friday, 31 December 2010
The last hour
It is the last hour of 2010 and I am sitting in the passenger seat thumbing this post.
The last 24 hours have been an apt reflection of what this year has been like for me; full of ups and downs, reactions and insights, conflicts and resolutions.
I am happy to say that I am at peace.
Tonight we opted to escape the new year madness and, after driving around for 90 minutes, Patrick and I created our own magic.
We decided that having kebabs and Champagne by the quiet shores nearby Melbourne's shipping docks would be the perfect way to end a perfectly imperfect year. And indeed it was - though we did swap the bubbles for organic orange juice.
With the clock ticking, the new year is but a few minutes away. Can a project dated 2010 continue into 2011?
I have decided not to answer straight away. I am taking a few days off and let the new year settle into my bones. Whatever I decide, be rest assured that I will let you know.
As midnight draws nearer, all I feel now is enormous gratitude. Thank you for lending me your ears and giving me a voice. Know that you have been instrumental in putting Humpty Dumpty together again.
This greatest reveal of Project Grace 2010 has been that my mojo was never lost. It was simply buried under years of emotional garbage, which took 9 months of regular trips to the dumpster (aka blog) to eliminate.
I feel stronger, clearer, focused and committed. There is structure, strategy and security in my renewed optimism.
Until next year, eliminate your emotional garbage regularly so that your mojo is within easy access.
Grace xx
PS. Have an amazing 2011. May it be full of love, happiness and exciting goals that will challenge and reward you. Don't be shy to embark on your own personal project and share it with the world... or at least me :-)
If you a. love me, b. love my blog, c. love this post or d. all of the above - please SHARE
Thursday, 30 December 2010
New Year's Eve Eve
The number of couch surfers we are hosting has multiplied!
As a result of fully booked backpacker accommodation in Melbourne, we now have three gorgeous, youthful, fun loving Italians staying with us (Lucio's friends who bused in from Adelaide).
After an amazing meal prepared by the newcomers Ambra (the marine biologist), Raffa (the barista) and a few glasses of good vino, the box of wigs and spectacles came out to play.
Needless to say we've had a fabulous night and have welcomed the last day of 2010. It's now 2:47am and it doesn't look like we'll be going to bed anytime soon.
So without further ado, I bid you adieu. I'm off to play Miss. DJ for there are many great tunes that ensue.
Until tomorrow, open your heart and home to those stranded with nowhere to sleep... you could be harboring the parents of a future messiah.
Grace xx
Wednesday, 29 December 2010
Lackadaisical

lackadaisical |ˈlakəˈdeɪzɪk(ə)l|
adjective
lacking enthusiasm and determination; carelessly lazy : a lackadaisical attempt at sun bathing in the Himalayas, saw Grace lying flat on her back whilst fully robed (amazing - it really said that! - okay, it really didn't).
Tuesday, 28 December 2010
Under cover
This is me literally under cover as I type one fingered on my iPhone. Not easy.
I find myself in this situation after welcoming our surprise interstate visitors, who are now in bed in the next room.
The children are sensitive to light and our window dressings are no match for this beacon of light (I live in a converted office space with windows that divide the two rooms).
So it's just a quick hello from me as I sweat under here.
Until tomorrow, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
Grace xx
Monday, 27 December 2010
Walking in water
Mum and I went for a walk along the beach straight after dinner this evening. We fought off temptation to retire to the couch for some well-earned potato inaction. Instead, we headed out the door.
We didn't have far to go before reaching the shore and swiftly kicking off our flip flops. We let the cool water wash over our feet as we engaged in conversations destined to solve the world's problems. It was delightful.
As we walked side by side, I couldn't help but notice my heightened senses. The sound of the waves lapping, the smell of the the salty sea air, the feel of sand between my toes and the wind playing with my hair. All these glorious sensations as I connected with my beautiful, sensitive, funny, loving, generous and nurturing mother, transported me to a place of pure bliss.
I love these magnificent moments. It's like walking-talking meditation where time performs a magic trick; it stands still, yet passes quickly. How does it do that? Oh yeah, it's magic.
Mum and I returned home feeling refreshed, and revived. It's these magical moments where we are fully present that rejuvenate us.
Then I had a light globe moment - such magic doesn't just happen, we create it.
Mum and I could have chosen recuperation by spending our evening gazing at the television. Instead, we chose rejuvenation by investing our time on the beach, with each other and walking in water.
As time goes on, I know I'll remember and treasure tonight's walk more than any Hollywood blockbuster Foxtel could offer. I'm glad we created magic.
Until tomorrow, invest your time in rejuvenation by creating your own magic moments.
Grace xx
If you a. love me, b. love my blog, c. love this post or d. all of the above - please SHARE
Sunday, 26 December 2010
Friday, 24 December 2010
Merry Christmas

I love the message of this YouTube Video...
If you a. love me, b. love my blog, c. love this post or d. all of the above - please SHARE
The Spirit of Christmas
Thursday, 23 December 2010
The Secret to Power Shopping
You might be shocked to learn (even horrified) that I traditionally do all of my Christmas shopping on Christmas Eve.
I stumbled upon this oasis of a shopping experience a few years ago when for some reason or another, I was forced into the stores the eve before Christmas. I was astounded to witness how few people actually shop for gifts on this day.
So while the masses have migrated from gift traps to supermarkets and bottle shops (aka liquor stores), the few that are brave enough to leave it to the last minute are rewarded with relative tranquility.
Today I did my shopping a day early and started my quest at 4:30pm this afternoon and was in the car soon after 6pm. Done and dusted. Yep, that's right, all done.
Wednesday, 22 December 2010
Cherry on top
A few days ago I came across this quad-cherry. Doubles and triples are common, but a quad - when have you ever seen such a thing?
So I left it out to photograph under strict orders that it not be eaten until I did so.
My current schedule meant that the cherries were out longer than necessary and consequently went a bit soft, thus resulting in a less than 'wow' photo.
This got me thinking...
Sometimes we have to take opportunities as they present themselves, for delaying it could mean passing up the optimum moment. If we wait any longer, we could miss it all together.
Taking action promptly may mean that we not only get to 'have the cake and eat it too', but we also get a bite at the cherry on top.
Until tomorrow, don't wait for the second bite of the cherry for it may not come around twice.
Grace xx
Tuesday, 21 December 2010
The Sicilian Girl
Monday, 20 December 2010
Cemetery Junction





